Thankful for Sweet Dreams

In the pale morning hours, I was awoken by my sweet daughter. She’s much more of a morning person than I will ever be, always greeting me or her daddy with a big toothless grin.

After her feeding this morning, her daddy took her out of the room and gave me one of the best gifts- a couple of more hours of rest.

During this time, my mind wandered into a detailed state of dreaming.

I was in a hospital room, visiting with some friends and their babies, I had my daughter with me as well. No one was sick though. I don’t really know why we were in a hospital.

The next thing I knew, my mom had come in, and I heard my friend say something about my dad, then my mom said “you need to come be with your dad.”

Clearly I was confused because my dad died over a decade ago. Nevertheless I followed her, demanding answers. I asked her what he looked like, if I’d be shaken by his appearance. She simply said he looked normal and that the nurses think he may have longer than they originally thought.

I walked in his room, saw him hooked up to all sorts of machines. Tears filled my eyes as a rushed by his bed. “Daddy it’s me, I didn’t know you were here” I cried. Slowly he raised his hand and touched my face.

I asked him if was ready to meet the Lord, and if he was certain of his salvation. He looked at me with curious grin, and nodded. My heart was overwhelmed with joy.

I showed him my daughter, and he tried to tickle her foot making her giggle.

I was overjoyed to see him, but so angry that I was told he was already dead. I kept apologizing, telling him I’d have been there everyday had I known he was there.

When I wake up from dreams like these, it always takes me a minute to decipher reality from my dreams, and they stick with me all day.

I do not dream of him often, but when I do, I always acknowledge that he has passed on and we just visit with each other briefly. I don’t know what dreams like these mean or if I even believe that people can really visit you in your dreams. But this Thanksgiving, I am grateful for so many things, particularly I am thankful that my husband let me sleep in a little so that I could spend this holiday with my daddy.


Four months!

I can’t believe that you are four months old today. That’s a third of a year!

You grow leaps and bounds daily. Over this last month you have mastered rolling over not only from your tummy to your back, but from your back to your tummy. You’re even pushing up on your knees while on your tummy. You also do a great job sitting up with assistance, but it seems like you always have.

When people meet you, they always remark about how alert you are. You’re always very interested in your surroundings, and you love looking around and smiling at people.

You are doing a great job grasping things with your hands. While nursing, you like to stroke my face with your hand, which I of course think is the most precious thing.

You’re still sleeping through the night like a champ, however, a few weeks ago there were a few nights that you would wake up hungry in the middle of the night. You had a growth spurt that lasted a few days, and you ate super frequently. But you got back to your old self and started sleeping all night again. The longest you’ve slept is 11 hours, but average around seven to eight.

You are in size 2 diapers and size 3-6 clothing. I’m guessing you weigh around 14 lbs, but we’ll find out for sure next week.

You have the best giggle, and you pull it out frequently which is nice especially since you’re going through a bit of a grump phase because you refuse to nap.

You still have lots of hair, but some spots are thinning out. I’m losing my hair by the handfuls, thank you hormones.

We started feeding you rice cereal this week which you sometimes love while other times you’re not so sure about it.

I’m so thankful that you are my daughter. You are so precious to me.

Eating mama’s milk

Playing with dad

Walks outside

Bath time


Your car seat

Nap time or going to sleep in general

Formula (which you’ve only had a couple of times)

Strange, big, loud people

Keep growing big and strong sweet girl. You are incredibly loved!

Update: as of your four month appointment today, you weigh 13 lbs and 9 oz and are 25.5 inches long. You’re blowing bubbles and raspberries which is apparently an older baby skill as well as pushing up on your knees. You were a champ getting your shots!